Reveal

​What if she wanted simply to reveal, and not be exposed?
 — Patricia Lockwood
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This often feels like my online picture-posting-blog-writing goal, revealing without exposure. Revealing feelings, stories, emotion and skin and keeping the vulnerability to a level where I don't feel exposed.

There is an appeal in wild abandon, emotional unraveling, catharsis and gaining strength from an supportive audience but I'm not that girl. I can't unzip myself and put my insides on display. It's not how I work in life so it's not how I work online. Of course it's about control more than anything. Controlling the narrative, controlling the gaze, focusing the viewer and thus focusing myself.

But I can see how that would make me and my work less accessible. Less impactful. 

Could I sacrifice my interior privacy and become more exposed in order to become more accessible to an audience? Would I do that? I don't know.